Friday, September 14, 2012

Day 52 Part 2

We didn't quite receive the news we expected fro our meeting with the doctors today.  I could kinda tell, as the doctors kept giving me sadden looks when planning our time to talk today.  We heard answers from the GI perspective yesterday...slightly out of context without thinking about the heart.  Basically, we are not eligible for a heart transplant because of the anatomy in her belly.  A transplant would set her up for failure because of the loss of antibodies into her swelling in her belly.  If her belly issues continue, she could be able to have a surgical procedure, but not until she is bigger...years from now.  Therefore, our option is that her heart is strong and works.  The doctors seem to be a bit skeptical of how the heart seems to be functioning better, and attribute that to the fact that she is on the ventalator and receiving a higher dose of medicine to help with the leak in her heart.  Honestly, I believe her heart is better because God is at work. She has had an echo every week and none of them have shown any progress, but the cardiac cath has.  Our only option is that her heart is in fact stronger.  That she will be able to function off the ventaltor.  We believe even now Lord, even now, You have the ability to create a beautiful miracle.  The doctors want us to focus on getting her home...and of course we do too.  I told them about the dreams from the children...I do believe we will be walking out of this hospital with Sweet Vivian in our arms.  Continue to pray unceasing--this story is a great example of my new attitude as I pray for this miracle.  Thank you Lord in advance!

Showers of Faith

by Fr. Jack McArdle with Aneel Aranha
"Truly I tell you, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there,' and it will move; and nothing will be impossible for you." (Matthew 17:20)

 There was a disastrous drought in one of the southern states of the U.S. some years ago, and much of the crops were lost. The state was declared a disaster area, and, while the government was coming to the help of the farmers, all churches began to pray for the rains to come. One night a mother was putting her little girl to bed. She was saying her night prayers. The mother suggested that she pray for rain, but she refused. This puzzled her mother, so she tried several different ways of broaching the subject, but each attempt was firmly turned down. The mother couldn't figure out why she was so insistent on refusing to pray for rain, so she came right out and asked her. "Mammy, I have two dolls on a bench in the back-garden, and if you go out and take them in, I'll pray for rain." If she prayed for rain, she expected it to rain!
Jesus repeatedly said through the gospels: "According to your faith, it will be done." How strong is your faith in Jesus?


  1. Dear Maria
    Your faith journey encourages me daily. Thank you for that. Meanwhile, as I have gotten older, I realize that trying to get into the mind of God usually doesn't work for me. I am just not privy to some of that future info that God has in mind for me/us. As my Italian grandma used to say, when things looked uncertain, "God-da knows." So, now I get it. The only thing that works is to surrender to God's will. My wonderful Uncle Bob was a patient and peaceful soul who cherished God and all that was good. He suffered a long illness before his journey to heaven. He once told me that he believed that God had a plan, and to fight it was useless. He chose to go along for the ride with absolute trust that God loved him and this was his journey. Now, that certainly didn't mean to roll over and play dead! We all kept those prayers rolling in because of our absolute belief in its power. So hang in there. Because at this point, "only God-da knows." Love, Nance